I suddenly had a lot to say. a lot to vent. but i just cannot do it. not here anyway ): it's seriously damn sad.

relax
breathe
relax
breathe
relax
breathe

haha


stupid chinese pt that i did so super lousily when we were given time to prepare. but i think i am ok with it lerh except I COULD HAVE DONE SO MUCH BETTER! ): but still it's ok i guess. still rmb shiyun and i were like standing outside the _______ classrooms and were like walking arnd yet not gg too far for the light so that we can read the notes and memorise whatever. but i guess i did well for a person who didnt prepare? BOOchinesept!

and orals coming next week.
but we are no better than those having tmr. the last day is always the worst like what i have (what i believe in since chi pt)
anyway, GOOD LUCK TO THEM! (: JIAYOUUS!


and JIAYOUUS AND GOOD LUCK TO THE SEC3S HAVING MATH TMR!!! (:


random: my hand smells of garlic larh. thanks to the cutting of garlic ytd. for the chicken rice!!! which didnt even taste like chicken rice ):



whatever. i need to go learn tingxie now...

i really hate that type of chang3 mian4. can i don't do it? do i have a choice? but it's better to try to settle it within ourselves before involving more impt ppl..can i do it? do i have the ability? HELP! this is really heart breaking. i think i will just go there talk a whole lot of crap and end up making her feel worse and sadder and make her life a total hell and then i will feel sorry for it. and then if it has a positive ending then she will be so enthu and join in more(no matter willingly or unwillingly) or negative she will just go quit and pretend she nvr knew me--the stupid person who ruined her whole life in rg. the one who forces her. the one who doesnt seem to feel sorry. the one who seem to be manipulating her. I DON'T WANT TO DO IT OK? this is so pissifying. I am really sorry. really. if i just ruined your life and u want me to get outta the way i am so sorry i am always like blocking you from having ur own freedom. you wont ever see this and it's sort of better cos i am rather mean here. i do know that okay? but please all i wish for is some responsibility. just a little bit of all that potential to be responsible in you to show. please don't hate me. please.

so many things to do. so little time.