for the sake of not letting this place be dead (like i was drng the checking of papers today), i shall update.
AND I AM VERY SAD. failed my very first paper of the er 15 years i have been alive in this world! and it's cos i didnt study. see lah when people like me dont study they fail like mad. like me. ): one of the lowest few in class leh i am so ashamed of myself ): but nvm i shall chiong for semester 2! oh i realised it isnt the first paper i failed. if you count the lit quizzes last year. my memory sucks see so i cldnt rmb quotes :/

but still haiz the other papers werent much better either. and i guess i sort of have nth to say about them. given that i have been really slack. hopefully thursday will be better.

and i failed my pft again. i just cldnt get myself into the mood that i have to be able to pass it etc today ): or maybe i am finding excuses for myself. i just wanted to get home earlier finish whatever work i can asap then can sleep early. cos i have been sleeping really late recently and a certain someone says my eye bags are getting worse! and i insist that i have no eyebags!
but now i have to do it in july. i shall sprain my leg again! haha. ok no i am not going to do that. i will make sure i pass stupid sbj for once. it's only stupid cos i cant do it hehe. and apparently my posts are really lame. :/

but i am sure no one will want to read my rants right. so i shall keep them to myself. (:


life goes on no matter what and i will not despair cos of a badly done chemistry paper. and believe me it's really badly done. and my badly done = fail okay? so trust me. i wonder why i didnt cry when i saw it. like seriously. okay okay okay i shall not start ranting. sadly i havent gotten any 4.0 yet for the MYAs not counting the titration(which i am damn happy for but might not be able to make me pass chem overall). and not even a 3.6 can. :/ OH NO. I AM IN SERIOUS TROUBLE. i need good results for math, geog, hcl and bio! otherwise i can say byebye to my VAIO haha yes my parents actually agreed to buy it for me if i do well for MYAs whichis like very screwed alr. nvm. i told myself i will work hard. and i will.

i wonder why i am even blogging actually. :/


today isnt the best day ever instead it's like totally screwed. i wonder how i manage to let that smile stay there for such a long time. so pardon me please. i am so sorry. i am really very sorry.