i know i am supposed to be on hiatus and doing smth more constructive now but rules are meant to be broken right not that there are any rules here.

was feeling damn damn damn depressed and sad and angry last night for some reason not to be divulged and cldnt do a single piece of constructive work. i really reached the limit of what i cld tolerate alr lorh ytd. haiz. and i realised how badly i will die next year. thanks claudia for cheering me up and putting some sense into my head at some weird time in the night ytd when she cld and shld have been sleeping! :D really felt better lah (: and shiyun! dont feel stressed alr okay over whatever u said in the car kay! even though i no longer believe that we can make it if we believe and whatever crap i said to try to console u cos i know it's sort of impossible le. but still dont feel so stressed okay! we can complain together if u want it really works lah like complaining to someone else haha i have lots of experience of that. so whatever it is, i dont want to see u emoing or being stressed or whatever alr okay! (:
YOU and YOU are damn lucky i am not mentioning any names. if u realise what u have been doing to make me feel so miserable and angry and depressed and anything.be honoured cos u two are the only ones capable of doing that other than myself.really really go reflect. go look at the walls arnd YOU and YOU. go think abt what YOU and YOU have done or rather NOT DONE.i have nvr been so frustrated in my life can.YOU and YOU do not deserve everything that i have done. not that i have been doing a lot. but compared to YOU and YOU i feel that i have like done millions and millions of positive things.YOU and YOU make me feel damn bad, super guilty, and that i am damn useless. i really wish that YOU and YOU are not the the kind of people that u both are and that whatever i do will have an effect. but sadly no. whether i am nice or scary, serious or not serious, it doesnt work. everything i do doesnt work. maybe it's my fault. maybe it's urs. but whatever it is i really wish that i can be proud of u guys but given the circumstances now is it even near possible?it's not worth it feeling sad and depressed and angry and feeling so damn urgh over YOU and YOU!and it's even more not worth it to ___ over YOU and YOU and i promise YOU and YOU i wont ever waste my time feeling whatever i felt and doing whatever i have done ytd on YOU and YOU anymore. it's just NOT WORTH IT.

sorry if i feel very agitated and for that tone that i have, i really cldnt take it anymore. taking it off my chest ytd did work (thanks claudia) but thinking abt it now(i know i shldnt,really shldnt) i just cant help it. D: i just cant stop feeling the way i feel. but i daresay it's better than ytd (: hopefully by monday i am the normal wenyi again!

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woke up damn late today with super swollen eyes, aftermath of ytd's i shall not say what. haiz. cldnt concentrate on work again and slept again like after i pracced piano properly for the first time in dunno how many months oops. and my swollen eyes were gone. i was half expecting my parents to ask why they were so swollen but thank god they didnt otherwise i wont have known what to tell them. D: only started on compre at like 4 plus after i woke up. damn unproductive i know. and afterthat my relatives came and i printed more scores. and went for dinner at arnd 7 and waited fm 7.30 to 8.30 arnd there for the chingay floats to come cos my parents wanted to see it. and IT DIDNT COME TILL ARND 8.30 CAN WHEN IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE 7.45. wasted all my precious time. but now at 11.20 i can proudly say i finished ss fa and geog activity sheet! and am abt to do geog wkst after this. and i tried doing lyrics for yme selection but its super lousy given my lousy mood. so i have only geog article and expository essay and phy wkst and ss article left which all arent due on mon. but i know i shldnt procrastinate! so jiayou me! :D



okay back to geog wkst. (i am really really starting not to like my ____ tchr can. she's so urghs! and doesnt teach at all how great!)

and back to hiatus!



i have to start doing smth for bio and ss D: